Maybe you remember what I wrote in a post a few days ago:
“I am reflecting and thinking over the art I made up ’till now.
What I like, what I don’t like (anymore) and which way I want my art to go… ”
One of the things I was not happy with was the shallowness of my art lately.
Not the ideas behind the layouts were shallow, not at all, but in the back of
my mind I always knew “I keep something behind”.
I don’t do that when it comes to scrapping “general matters” (like this layout)
but when it comes to personal, very personal journaling, I like to keep it
in general. I don’t speak my true mind easily – I’m always aware of the fact
that I put my works on the Internet and a lot of people can see and read it.
Although most people find me very open, there has always been some
reticence in the way I express myself…
Up ’till now that is, because I decided to (try to) let that go, and show
(more of) myself. To go a little further and be a bit more personal in doing that.
To prevent myself from chickening out at the last moment, I made this page
for the Lotus Paperie challenge. That way I would be forced to put it here
on my blog (after all, it is on the Lotus blog too!)
OK, no further delay… I opened up and spit something out.
Something to myself. Something I must tell myself more often.
Something I must face…
I’m the woman who sits in a corner, a bit aggrieved that nobody
notices her. I See things, hear things and I think “I can do that too” or
“I want that too” but I stay put in my corner, sulking over the fact that
no one recognises my talent.
I wish for some one to ring my doorbell and say:
“Hey, you’re that woman we need to help us out/publish a layout/
teach a workshop…” but that’s not going to happen, is it?
How should they know you can do all those things, when you never
tell them you can! So I made this page filled with (Dutch) journaling
in which I tell myself:
“Why do you think ‘they’ will find you arrogant if you say
you can do something? And if they find so, does that really matter?
Stop being afraid to show yourself or your art – do it!
Don’t expect ‘them’ to smell you can teach workshops – you even have
a teachers degree, go tell them! When you send a layout to a magazine
and you get back a rejection – don’t grumble and back off -just try again!
Don’t hide in your little corner, step into the light!
If you want something: GO GET IT!”
Detail
Detail
Challenge #141 over at Lotus
Paperie is to handcut printed
paper and use as embellies.
I found all the little arms on
“Freubel Art”
That’s a website and blog run
by Rian – a real nice Dutch lady
who makes digital art.
She has some beautiful images
on her website, and she invites
everyone who wants to use it
to download those freebies
(for personal use only!)
And so I did! These arms and
grabbing hands were just what
I needed.Thanks Rian!!!
And now, this layout is published and I said it…
in public.
It scares the shit out of me.
But I showed myself – more.
I wanted to do that in my art.
This is me.
Have a nice weekend.
Je t’embrasse.